corny

mushy and cheesy
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corny

right now i'm here at cool web pedro gil because my favorite internet cafe (e-jim) seems has a problem in there internet access.. hayyyy.... this place is actually great and i mean GREAT its just that the music really sucks. no it doest really sucks its actually good its just that right now because of the music here i am forced to be mushy and cheesy + corny.

this is the part were i reminisce and start to be mushy. i hate this feeling. this feeling where theres this big thing in your chest that you just want to breath out. the feeling were you want to cry or honestly sometines the feeling were you just dont know what to do...because you know that the only thing that will subside this "feeling" is when you get to be with the one you love or when the one you love will love you back which somehow for me and for others out there is impossible because the man that i or we love doesnt really love me or us at all and that fuckingly hurts. well there could be other options for us to breath out this 'feeling' and that would be ending up are life or run into a bus and have yourself an amnesia which of course seems to be more impossible....


and seriously the most hurtful thing that this "feeling" gives me is to realize that i still love the him. Him that damaged me and almost made me kill myself.
and that is really unfair and i mean unfair. i mean isnt it enough that he have hurt me? isnt it enough that he have ruined my life?....hayyy..... its just unfair..just unfair...

as of now i heard he has already moved on and that he is about to court another woman now.. and hearing it made me mad...not because for the fact that he is courting another woman..but for the fact that it still hurts. i am mad at myself because it still hurts....because right now...its still him. and him alone......

..i feel pity for myself..

kawawa naman si sarah

ang corny diba!