feels blessed. too blessed. ^^

Activity: Blood Drive
need: At least 30 bags of blood

Sept 2, 2009

Sarah: President, how much pledges did we collect?
President: We obtained 6, hopefully all the members will donate blood as well... total of 21
Sarah: *felt really scared... SIX? :'(

and then prays

(Lord, by Thy will, kahit 15 lang po. Thank you.. amen)*

okay president.. let us pray..dont worry..aabot tayo ng 30 ^^

September 4, 2009

at the end of the activity..we obtained 54 bags of blood,
way more than I asked from God


so Thank you Lord, :D

Thank You for the supportive family and friends that you blessed me with. :)

the good manongs and kuyas.

back in high school i had a very very interesting and heart whelming experience in riding the common public transportation here n manila.. no, not the jeepney but none other than the fx transpo :D

i dont know why i am posting this entry but all of a sudden i just remember that experience of mine and just poof, decided to write it down here :D

it was monday, i think, but i dont have my usual classes..for what reason? i can't seem to remember haha instead i have a violin lesson as early as 7 or 8 am i think..

anyway, my day started as the usual, i left laguna as early as 5 and then arrived at PGH arround 6am maybe and by 7am together with my violin, i was already on my way to Buendia

back in high school. money wasnt really that big of a problem for us, so at a daily basis, i have a "baon" of 200-300 pesos..swerte na kung nasa mood si papa at bibigyan ako ng 500 hahaha anyway.. at that day, my father was in a good mood and so he gave me 500 pesos as a whole..

my usual transpo everytime i have my violin with me is fx since well, it is much easier and people tend to not to look at me or to my violin i should say too much :D

nag para ako ng fx.. yung hindi pa puno..thinking..maybe he already had his first route and for sure may panukli na siya sa 500 peso bill ko.. the moment i fixed my self in the passenger sit, i automatically hand him my money and smiled sheepishly

"manong, buendia po, pasensya na po buo pera ko"

which the manong driver replied

"nako hija, wala pa akong panukli, hawakan mo muna yan"

moments later...we have already passed quirino, vito cruz, then approaching the end of buendia..

there was only one passenger who ride the fx..

when my stop came, i said:

"manong, diyan nalang po sa tabi.. ahm, paano po bayad ko?"

which the good manong driver replied with a smile

"sige hija, pabayaan mo na yun, ingatan mo nalang yang guitara mo."

and after my thank you and smiles.. off i go.


after the violin lessons.. it was already 10


nagpara ulit ng panibagong fx..thinking na for sure may panukli na ang mga driver

"manong, bayad po, pgh lang"

then another passenger "manong" ride the fx taking out a huge and i mean huge bulk of 500s, 100s. 50s and many more from his pocket

the driver said

"nako hija, nalate kasi ako ng gising, wala pa akong panukli diyan"

then the passenger beside me said

"hija ako na magbabayad sayo, manong eto oh *hands the 20 peso bill*"

and i said

"hala, kuya maraming salamat po!"

which the kuya replied

"ok lang yun, violin ba yan? mahal yan diba? alam mo pangarap ko yan noon eh"

which i aumatically replied with a smile

"opo, violin po toh.. hindi naman po masyado mahal, sure po akong kayang kaya nyo tong bilhin hehe"

then when i arrived in pgh, i aumatically said my goodbyes to kuya pasahero beside me and said my gratefullness.


hayysss.. this days napaka rare na ng ganyang mga kuya anyways.. i couldnt say na hell weeks are already over.. may isa pang exam whew..PARA!

must love the parasites. :D must love public health

*note: para sa mabilis mangdiri at para sa mga mahihina ang sikmura.. pls, skip this blog entry :D

for dis sem's class, every 8 - 12 am of mondays and thursday; the 3rd years of BS Public Health of UP manila which of course includes me have our parasitology class and kaninang umaga, lo and behold, we examined our own stools hahaha oo, our own jebs! ahahaha but today's para class, for me has more meaning compare to my previous classes and simply because i was blown away by our lecturer Dr. Belizario.. but before i tell you my story, i-kwento ko muna sainyo ang aking jebs examination hahaha known as fecalysis

hahahaha, it was really funny, at first, ayaw ko ng para, naiinis ako dahil natatakot ako sa mga prof at higit sa lahat medyo merong memorization ng taxonomy eh ayaw ko pa naman ng taxonomy, tapos medyo strict ang bungad ng mga teachers namin kaya xempre, ako naman ay takot na takot hahahah but as the days go by, after namin mahalin ang mga protozoans well medyo nainlove na rin ako sa para.. hahahah

tapos na kami magaral ng mga protozoans, ngayon nasa mga nematodes na kami yes.. sino bang hindi nakakakilala sa Ascaris lumbricoides na feeling ko lahat tayo nung panahon ng ating kabataan ay pinainom ng pampurga para sa parasitikong ito hahahaha, anywho, last friday, sabi ng instructor namin:

"next week, prepare yourself dahil si Dr. Belizario (which happnds to be the author of the book na ginagamit namin at well known parasitologist lalo na sa field ng filarial worms) ang magtuturo sainyo, at higit sa lahat, dalhin nyo ang sarili nyong stool samples dahil titingnan natin kung infected ba kayo ng mga parasites hahahaha"

lahat kami sa class ay nag "eeewww, NO!!!" hahahhaah it was really funny kasi yung mga reaksyon namin parang hindi kami mga future Public health practitioners hahahah

saturday and sunday came, masyado akong nastress sa kakaisip kung paano ba ako kukuha ng sample ko hahaha by sunday afternoon, nagrequest ako sa sister ko na kung pwede bilhan nya ako ng stool container after ng work nya.. pagdating nya sa bahay ng 11 pm, syempre, walang dala ang ate ko, out of stock na daw sa mga mercury drug store na pinuntahan nya at ako naman ay nag throw ng tantrums hahahah sa inis ng ate ko sa pagmumukha ko, ewan ko ba kung paano nya nagawa yun pero nakapagproduce siya ng urine container which binato nya sa mukha ko hahah medyo masakit pa nga eh! hmmp pero sige thank you na riN!
*wink wink* hahahaha

monday 5 am in the morning.. siyem! hindi ko alam gagawin ko! i have to be fast kasi naman nasa laguna pa ako at halleur! monday kaya! for sure traffict!! buti nalang mabait tatay ko at pinabayaan nya akong magcontemplate sa banyo hahhaha i felt like i was a dog hahahah i spread a news paper inside our bathroom siyempre! and there. hahahaha ewan ko ba, effort talga ang ginawa kung yun hahahah super iniisip ko:

pls, pls, lumabas ka! ayaw kong bumagsak! for the love of
PH!!!

and thankfully, yes, nakuha ko ang aking hinahangad, i got only a small sample, about a size of a thumb which is of course the proper way... hindi yung buong thumb huh! yung half a thumb lang yung sabi nila is equivalent to 1-inch ahhaha anywho masayang masaya na akong nagtravel pabalik ng manila along with my. :D j*bs :D

by 8:00 am nagstart na ang lecture namin kay Dr. Belizario, pero mamaya ko na ikukuwento yuN! :D after ng lecture, we proceed sa laboratory and of course we did our stool exam.

hmm. lahat kami naka mask which is first time sa para lab namin kasi before, kahit nageexamine kami ng stool, formalinize naman na yung mga yun kaya hindi na nangangamoy but today was really different hahaha everybody have their own containers at lahat ay tense na tense hahahaha

oo mabaho, pero siyempre hindi naman namin sabay sabay binuksan yun noh! we did it by groups.. one group at a time :D tapos siyempre bukas lahat ng window..buti nalang panahon pa ng americans nung ginawa yung building na yun kaya ang mga bintana ay uuubbbber laki kaya ayun, maganda ang ventilation ;D

wala naman naginarte pero siyempre may iba pa rin na nangdiri, nasuka, naduwal etc etc which sinabihan lang ng instructors namin na

"sana hindi ka nalang nag public health"

but siyempre, first time lang naman kaya understandable :D

results?? hahahah clean!!! no protozoans and no nematodes!!! hahahah madaming fiber dahil sa gulay na kinain ko hahahahahaha

one of our classmates is infected by trichuris heheheh which is masayang masaya pang naibroadcast nang aming teacher sa buong class hahahaha

_end_

we may not have the MDs on the end of our names, but we are doctors. Our goal is to prevent but most of the time we heal as well. We our doctors not for mere individulas but for an entire community and most of the time for an entire country as well.

matagal na panahon ko ng sinasabi sa blog ko na i want to be a doctor. 100x na ata, to the point na nagsasawa na siguro ang mga tao sa kakarinig nun. pero anong magagawa ko, eh gusto ko talga :D pero hindi naman talga yung pagiging doctor mismo ang gusto ko.. hindi yung white coat, hindi yung pangalan sa unahan na Dr. or yung pangalan sa huli na M.D. ang habol ko.. i want to heal, i want to serve God through healing, i want to heal the sick and the poor and touch their lives through it.

Kaninang umaga, Dr. Belizario, like I said, a well known parasitologist was our lecturer. Well ang lecture nya is about filarial worm.. halos nalibot na nya ata ang buong Pilipinas para lang mapainom ng albendazole at DEC ang mga tao na nasa endemic areas sa Pilipinas.. his lecture was full of stories.. stories na hindi nya lang narinig but stories of his experiences sa field... nakakalungkot mang sabihin pero sa mga ikinuwento nya saamin, marerealize mo kung gaano kakawawa ang bansa natin, kung gaano katalamak ang ignorance not only sa mga taong nasa probinsya na hindi nakapagaral pati din mismo yung ibang health workers na iisipin mong magagaling at pagkakatiwalaan ng mga tao ng kanilang kalusugan ay kulang din sa kaalaman (e.g. may mga stories si sir kung saan ang mga laboratory diagnosticians ay hindi ginagawa ang proper staining at smearing ng blood bec hindi nila alam na mali pala yung way na ginagawa nila!)

nakakalungkot talga.. sa mga storya nya at sa mga graphs, studies na ipinakita nya.. nakakaawa tayong mga Pilipino at lalong lalo na ang mga mahihirap na Pilipino. Ewan ko ba, napaka simple lang naman ng lecture ni sir pero dahil ibinahagi nya ang mga nalalaman nya at ang mga nakita nya saknyang field work, naisip ko tuloy na parang ayaw ko ng magdoctor, parang gusto ko nalang ituloy ang pagiging Public health worker ko.. gusto kong magtravel sa Pilipinas at painumin din ng mga DEC, albendozole at metronidazole at pati na din ciproflaxacin ang mga tao hahahahah gusto kong bigyan ng totoong feeding program yung mga malnourish na bata ahhahhaha at gusto kong gamutin ang mga may hydrocele hahahaha

habang nakikinig ako sa lecture ni sir, naisip ko din na hindi talga ako nagkamali sa course na pinili ko.. hindi man ganon kagaganda ang mga grades pero alam kong hindi ako nagkamali sa course na pinili ko. alam kong ang mga itinuturo ngayon saamin ang siyang gusto kong matutunan...

ayaw kong magsalita ng tapos, kasi naiisip ko din na gusto kong magdoctor tapos pagnaging doctor na ako, babalik ako sa public health tutal kahit ano naman ang mangyari public health worker na talga ako ;D hahahah (self proclaimed!)

marami sigurong hindi nakakaalam kung ano ang course ng BS Public Health, siguro yung iba pagnarinig nila yun iisipin na napaka dali ng course namin.. well ayaw ko namang sabihin na mahirap ang course namin pero masasabi ko na halos sakop namin ang lahat ng field hahah kasi ang majors namin includes, Nutrition, Biostatistics, Epidemiology, Parasitology and Microbiology, Environmental Health, Dental health basta lahat ng issues na involve and publiko.. isama mo na din na nag papathology kami at halos nakuha nanamin lahat ng chemistry subjects..

basta, ang Public Health ay hindi medical technology, hindi kami tinuturaan para maging laboratory workers.. tinuturuan kami para maging Public Health workers.. para magakaroon ng magandang health ang mga tao sa community.. our main goal is to prevent.. not to treat.. kaya kung iisipin mo, para rin kaming mga doctor kaya nga lang, hindi individuals ang tinetreat namin, hindi yung mga may sakit ang nagpupunta saamin, pinpuntahan namin ang isang community, ang isang baranggay at doong sinisikap naming mapaganda ang community nila sa aspeto ng kalusugan kung tutuusin pati din sa aspeto ng kabuhayan upang saganoon magkaroon ng isang maganda, malusog at productive na bayan at lipunan

*bow*


i love public health

new year blog.

i know. its a cliche. another new year blog entry. i wasnt really planning to write anything since i know only few and i mean few people are only reading my blog and because i'm too lazy to write one :D. but my decision changed because for whatever reason i have stumbled upon my previous blog entries and thats when i realized how much i have changed since well, i entered college :D

if your gonna read all of my blog entries in this blog, you will know that it started at exactly june 11, 2006 .. yes, for all UP readers.. it started 2 days before the start of our college life... well that blog entry was really nothing, it was just describing how excited i was to enter college.. :D so if your really gonna think about it, this blog should be entitled "the life of a young college girl" or whatever blah blah.

the following are the things that i have realized when i amazinlgy stumbled upong my previous blog entries:

1. the top 3 subjects or topics that i have been writing in dis blog are:

1. my dreams
2. love life
3. my college subjects but most of them are all about math 17

2. i entered college as a very scary, naive young girl and then

3. grew as a stronger person

4. i have never really stoped loving

5. i realize how much i really love my dreams

6. i realize that i have been really blessed by the Lord for all the many things that he have given me, even the trials.. all of those things helped me to learn things about life and helped me to gain wisdom, patience and a lot more

7. i've also realized that i am more flexible (in the sense of social activities) now compare to my old self

8. though i have already experienced a lot of things, there are still many high mountains that i have to climbed and much much deeper rivers and seas that i have to cross in order to learn the things i need to learn and in order to achieve my dreams.

9. and though maybe i have greatly changed for the past 3 years, there are still things that have never changed:

1. my weight :D
2. my passion in medicine and my aim to be a doctor
3. and most of all, God; His love for me and my love for Him


and so for 2009, i have no other wish but to grow into a better person and to love those people who have loved me for the past years of my life and to meet more and new people so that i can learn from them and so that somehow they can learn something from me as well :D


to my family, friends, enemies, those who hate me or whatever,thank you so much, and happy new year :D
God Bless :D


thank you Lord

sakura

*i know my mamas will be so mad at me or might just tease me to death if they read this blog entry or even hear about this blog entry. but since i'm such a bitter ass, here it goes;

i once had a friend, a huge guy but with the softest heart.. soft not in the homosexual way but soft in the kindhearted way. his not a gentlemen like the other guys, but i know, we know, that he cares for us and protects us like a brother or at least, we thought so.

whenever he is about to say or do such bad things he will always have this moment of "ala eto nanaman ako! sabi ko ng magbabago ako ngayong college life!" we will always laugh at him when he says that, since we do know that he doesnt really need such things because we believe and we know that he is kind and whatever evil thing he sees in his self is not true.. or at least, we thought so.

i've always loved that guy (in a very friendly/brotherly way) and i have always thought that he will never abandon us. that until graduation or even in med school or after graduation he will always be our ____. but i guess people change or in his case, people can never really change.

he left us. no, abandon us. out of the blue he was no where to find. he has new set of friends and for me.. it doesn't really matter as long as he keeps in touch but he never did.. the truth is, ok lang naman na lumipat or maghanap ng bagong friends.. i mean, why would you limit your self to just 9 or 8 friends when you can have 10 or 50 more..ryt?

but having new friends, doesn't mean abandoning and ignoring your old friends. i'm not bitter because he left.. i'm bitter about the way/manner he left the group.

he left.. and at some point i thought it was for the best. he changed..no, disappeared.. the huge but kindhearted guy that we/i once knew was already gone much like 6 ft below the ground..and i was on the corner of the room grieving.

the dead can never be resurrected.. or if that happens, it only means miracle.

i am not expecting for a miracle. no.. i am not.

at some point i have already accepted that he is happy with whoever he is with now, or again, at least i thought so.

i am not mad anymore.. no, i am not.. you have choose that path, and who the hell am i to judge you, right? but just please tell me something..

are you really happy?
do they really make you happy?
do you really like your self right now?
coz seriously, i can't see it in your smile.
nor in your eyes.

if your answer to that question is yes.. then i am happy for you...but if deep down in your heart, your answer is no... i have no more words to offer to you

but rest assure that at some point, your mamas will still be here.
i miss you

things I REALLY HAVE to DO

i know its sembreak and i have to at least have some little fun or a little break from school work, but i guess the consequences of my laziness last semester are paying off this sembreak.. i have tons of things to do, not to mention my exam next week.. yes you heard me right, MY EXAM! its just so happend that I missed my biochem exam due to a very high fever.. i am just greateful that the department of nutrition or Sir Bullecer I should say, is willing to give me a special exam for my missed 3rd exam..anywho, just pls let me enumerate the things i have to do so that this sembreak i wouldn't be lazy to do them all and so that when second semester comes i would be proud of myself for the things that i have accomplished.

1. study for my biochem exam next week oct.28
2. make sure to fix all my rugged books
3. put on a plastic cover to all my beloved books
4. fill up my NMAT application form
5. study for the much awated upcoming NMAT exam this coming december
6. and well a little care for my body (haha)
7. finish the book that abi gave me (so that i could be enlighten)
8. well, think about my future haha

hmm.. seems that all my work is filled with readings, readings and MORE READINGS. oh wel, i am a student and this is my job haha

*bow*

then der was the very sad man

ok, so this blog entry of mine will be sort of different from my other blog entries because for one thing dis entry is not entirely about me but about the sad man i know.

there was a man, a very happy man who always smile at me and has become my ray of shine. for some reason he has this smile that can somehow affect a small crowd, one smile from him always make me produce this big smile..a smile that makes me flash my teeth and that would always touch my eyes.. for many days or months.. he has always been there..smiling and making me happy. we're not really close, in fact besides his name there are only very few and i mean few things that i know about him but still, that has never become a hindrance about him making me happy.

then a week have past it seems that i can't feel his presence anymore like clouds have started to block my sunshine. then when he came.. it was as if my sunshine was transformed into a very dark cloud.. he wasn't smiling anymore, in fact he wasn't talking to me anymore. i felt bad, i even deliberated for a moment to think if whether i did something bad at him that will make him turn dat way and for a moment i even blamed myself for whatever unknown thing have happened to him...but then one afternoon, as i sat in front of my computer and surfing the net.. i accidentally saw the reason why my ray of sunshine has turned in the king of ice.

he was in pain. he was in a deep pain...a pain that maybe only a few could really understand. it was the kind of pain that can only be healed by one person, either him or that other somebody. days have past and my ray of sunshine drifted away.

he was gone and he was replaced by this very sad man. now, every time he enters the room and everytime i see him, the only thing that i will feel is sadness.. not that i am sad for him or i am sad about him..its just that there is too much sadness in him that it radiates in his environment.. yes he smiles and yes he does talk but still, i can see in his eyes the pain and the agony.

everytime our paths come across i always want to smile thinking that maybe my happiness could have an effect on him but of course my assumptions just turned in vain.. now everytime i see him, there is no other thing that i would feel but the urge or more of like the responsibility to make him happy or at least to make him produce this smile that will also reach his eyes.


i'm not asking for my ray of sunshine to come back rather i am just hoping that somehow, someday this very sad man could smile again and be happy about his life




then one day
he appeared with this rose and so as what have the book WICKED said,

my heart melted.