patience

.patience.


it was Wednesday...and i have no sleep since the night before...i was so haggard and i was very sleepy to the point that i didnt care if my professor was in front me while i was snoring like a pig..

before the class ends...for some unknown reasons tears began to fall from my eyes..
and they were not just ordinary tears...they were awful tears..
tears that somehow are only meant to be released when someone dies..
tears that are too exaggerating. tears that i dont know why were there...


as those mysterious tears fall from my eyes...and as i made hiccups i ran down stairs so that my friends wont see my day view as the most dramatic actress in UP but unfortunately my friends were really eager...then ran after me and give me all the comforts that i need but as they started to hug me and path my back those mysterious tears began to expose itself...as if it was an actress who wants all the attention that she could get....

and before i knew it there i was crossing the streets, crying with my two closest friends or should i say to mamas...

the funny thing is as i was trying to explain what i am feeling or as i was trying to explain that i was crying for some unknown reasons the more i felt that there was really somebody inside of me. like a different me; a different Sarah... a Sarah who is been there for a long time but i've been ignoring since day one.....Sarah who finally break down, Sarah who have finally made its way out of the dark and out of the shackles that the sarah (facade) gave her....

as i enter the dormitory together with my two friends my grief just becomes worse but as i sat and lay on the bed things got better...i felt like i was a baby who needs her mommy to give her some hug and some candies..but since my mom was not there i was thankful enough that my two friends were der to accompany me even though they had also the same sleep less nights....

sigh..

i named Sarah (the one break down) PATIENCE and here is her story. Patience was living inside of sarah since she was a child, patience receives all the negative things, all the bad things and all the fearful things that sarah get's from her family, friends, peers and from the world. Without patience, sarah may have enter the ward 7 due to anxiety and great sadness. Without Patience Sarah may have already killed thousands of people, without Patience Sarah would have not been what she is now. But i guess Patience grew tired. She grew tired of accepting all the pain, she grew tired of being timid and silent. Patience grew tired from keeping all Sarah's pain and suffering to the point that Patience cant take it anymore. Patience got mad and patience felt like she needed to be free. Patience felt that she needs to spread her wings and express her feelings from time to time...and so when the moment came that Sarah's physical body was all down, Patience made her way. Patience made her way to the light and to the world... Patience cried and cried and cried till all the pain and sufferings that were compressed was released...