facade

i smile, when you try to make me smile,
i laugh when you try to make a joke.
i am seriously happy when we are together,

but then

you start telling cute things about HER
you start telling me how much you like her
and most of all, you start telling me how much you love her

and then, that's were i smile with a cheerful eye.

but then
those are my facade


i cry each time you tell me how much beautiful she is

my heart is pierced by a thousand arrows each time you tell me that she's the only one your heart beats for.

yet what strikes me the most is that the way you hope that your relationship will lasts forever.
it always hurt me every time i see you praying and hoping so much for the two of you to lasts.

but on the other hand, each time i get hurt, i also can't stop praying and hoping that she will not play with your feelings, that even though i have this great love for you i am still hoping that the two of you will lasts.

i envy her. in fact i have never been envy to anyone in my entire life except for her, its not that because she's beautiful or anything but it is simply because at this very moment, it is her who is holding your heart. it is her who is taking care of you, loving you and making you happy.

i envy her.

but what can i do?

i'm simply just your best friend

and that will simply never change.