a distorted feeling. free writting.

i can't breathe, every air is like a pain in my chest
my heart seems stops beating...

sometimes things are meant only to be memories
sometimes events come into a person's life only to be memories.
nothing more, nothing less..
only but memories...

i'm bleeding, and i don't know when will it stop
can you feel me now??
do you understand me now??
i'm broken and i'm all alone...

i'm bleeding, why can't you feel me??

or am i just bleeding for a memory that was lost long long time ago
am i bleeding for only to be found by no one?

nobody understand, and nobody will ever will...
its our own world, our own happiness...
but i'm surprised to woke up and realized everything was just a dream

do i still know you?
or am i looking and waiting for a complete thin air?
to an invisible person, that only my fantasy can see.

i'm standing in complete darkness..
i'm falling in a bottomless pit.
will there be an end?
will there be someone to catch me??

or forever will i fall in this bittersweet happiness?

love, sorrow, words that echo on my mind,
but it seems i struggle and knowing such words.
or should i say i have stopped knowing and feeling such emotions..
for if i discover them once again,
i fear that the pain that i will feel would be twice as much the pain i felt before.