honestly speaking

its one hell of a Friday


things have changed and lately, a lot of things really pisses me off.

since the day that i got my GWA for the second semester yr 06-07,
i already had this feeling na kaya ko pala ang UP, I mean from a grade and a warning position of 2.7 from 1st semester i manage to have a grade and a good standing position of 1.9 this 2nd semester na halos 0.2 points nalang College scholar na ako... and yes because of that i actually had the idea and the belief that if i really want to, i could actually achieve good grades and i could actually graduate with flying colors but this summer; while having my chem 14 and chem 14.1 classes things again have changed

while i was all like in the cloud nine, dreaming about good grades things are actually flanking; my chem 14 and my chem 14.1 to be honest is really not going too well, its not that i don't understand and i can't understand any of my teacher's lecture its just that i am actually not used to my schedule...sobrang nahihirapan akong magkaroon ng proper time management.. sobrang nahihirapan akong magadjust kaya ayun everyday it always end up na wala man lang akong nagawa ni isang assignments or any advance reading which really pisses me off.

iba ang chem 14 at 14.1 though masasabi kong masmadali pa rin ito sa legendary math 17.. pero iba pa rin talaga siya.. bukod sa fact na hindi naman talaga ako magaling sa chem or at least pangit ang high school background ko sa chem medyo nakakaroon na rin ako ng katamaran saaking katawan.

for some unknown reason nagiging tamad ako this summer; hindi ko nga alam kung bakit. i have my theories pero honestly speaking ulit halos lahat ng theories ko laging nakablame sa ibang tao. ayaw ko naman nun kasi kung totoo man ang mga theories ko den i am such a loser because i let other people control me and pull me down and isapa ayaw ko din ng ganong klasing theory kasi it only means na kasalanan ko pa rin ang lahat.

hayy... nakakainis talaga.. i dont know what to do

tapos malapit na ang first dep exam.. grabe kinakabahan na talaga ako..

wish me luck
and pray that God will be on my Side

amen.

by the way,

i stole something from friendster
its not much,, but it realy important
its marvin's picture. :D