i suck

isang masakit ng biyernes ang araw na ito

..... masakit ito pagkat ngsimula ang araw ko sa pamatay na p.e. class which involved a 12 lap running within 45 minutes.... damn it. natapos ko ng 46.. one minute nalang hindi ko pa nakuha!!!

.....chemistry class... the feeling is still the same. the fear for mam ilao is still stron ang the fear for receiving the result of my long exam was more fearful... at last, it was given and i was shocked.. buwisit 50 ang passing 47 ako!!! bakit ganun!!! 3 nalang hindi ko pa nakuha!!!

..... a painful hour... math 17... eto na ang resulta ng kagabing dep exam.. hay bakit paba ko mabibigla syempre bagsak nanaman ako.. nakakaiyak na talaga toh.. sobra na toh. sobra na!


bakit ganun... unti nalang hindi ko pa rin nakuha.... bakit kailangang maging ganon ang buhay?? i know life is unfair but why does it had to be this hard??? i really hate the fact that i am in UP yes in University of the Philippines but i am failing. i dont know kung masarap pakinggan ang, "ako ang bobo ng UP" kahit ba U.p. pa yun, the point is still the same. bobo at bagsakin pa rin ako and i tell you, IT SUCKS!!! the feeling is undescribable!!! i wanna die, i want to end it now.. as if now na! i really want to give up. i dont know if i can still take this..... hindi ko na ata talaga kayang lumban, nahihirapan na ko talaga ng sobra.....

bakit kailangan kong maranasan toh? did i do something that made God mad at me?? parang wala naman ata.. why must i suffer??? hay... totoo ba ang sinabi ni burgoz na "not a leaf falls without the will of God"... is this the will of God? or this is another punishment or consequence of whatever it is that i have done... urrghhhh i suck! and it sucks to know that i suck! buwisit.